couples, couples everywhere
Tuesday, May 28, 2013 @ 8:26 PM
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I realize that this blog has become a ranting space for me. I'm sorry, but this is my last safe space. Not Facebook, where everyone and their mothers can comment on stuff that I post. Not Twitter, because 140 characters. Not Tumblr, where people judge people.
Hello, blog.
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ICH BIN KEIN KIND MEHR
My parents have been making things hard for me every time I ask if I can go somewhere because it has come to their attention that most of my friends are now
involved, with each other, specifically. Apparently that's a cause for alarm because "I'm getting too exposed to things I shouldn't be exposed to," which pretty much translates to "OH NO MY PRECIOUS CHILD IS SURROUNDED BY COUPLES OH NO SHE'S GONNA WANT A BOYFRIEND AND THEN GET MARRIED AND SHE'S NOT GONNA FINISH COLLEGE AND SHE'S GONNA GET PREGNANT AND SHE'S NEVER GONNA GET A JOB AND SHE'S GONNA BE POOR OH NO WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO???!!!!"
It's ridiculous.
I assured them that I don't intend to be in a relationship until after I get a job and finish college, but apparently that's not enough. I ask them to trust me, and they say they do but then they still insist their point. I totally understand what they're saying, but I need them to give me credit. I need them to say they trust me and show me that they actually do. Not just say it and impose stupid crap like "oh next time you can't watch your best friend's orchestra concert anymore because there's too many couples blahblahblah" like GOSH do you think I go because I want to be the fifth wheel? (Not to mention that I'm not actually the fifth wheel because I know someone who has more experience with that and I'm sorry but your parents don't really give you crap about this.) I went because I wanted to support my best friend and because I wanted to listen to classical music, plus I wanted to breathe some fresh air from MoCo (HAHA just kidding...or am I?)
It's like they're expecting me to want to make out with someone just because I see my friends holding hands or something.
Okay, to be fair, I do crave companionship. I am pretty lonely. I feel it in my bones sometimes. By sometimes, I mean all the time. Not to mention the whole hopeless romantic thing. It has the ability to amplify loneliness somehow. It's like a really crappy Yugioh card: LONELINESS, HOPELESS ROMANTIC 5000x MULTIPLIER
But that doesn't mean I'll just date any random guy. First of all, I'm too spiritually immature to actually be in a relationship. I want to work on that first and then date when I'm ready. Second, I don't want to be half of a couple just because I'm lonely and I feel like I'm going to die alone. I don't want to be involved out of desperation. I want to be satisfied and content in God and in my singleness. Third, I have goals and I intend to reach them with as little distractions as possible. And it's not like me being single until I get there will be a problem. I can't get a boyfriend even if I wanted to, okay.
I'm not girlfriend material, to put it bluntly. I just don't have the face or the personality. I'm a girl friend. I'm the friend you talk to when you want to talk about your significant other, and I would be happy to listen. I thrive on romantic stories and stuff. It's a thing.
Somehow I actually find it hard to imagine myself being with someone. I'm too...homely. Heh. It's good I like cats; it completes the whole image HAHAHA
Anyway since this post is pretty much me just complaining about things, I'll wrap it up. See ya.
couples, couples everywhere
Tuesday, May 28, 2013 @ 8:26 PM
| 0 notes*blows dust off of blog*
I realize that this blog has become a ranting space for me. I'm sorry, but this is my last safe space. Not Facebook, where everyone and their mothers can comment on stuff that I post. Not Twitter, because 140 characters. Not Tumblr, where people judge people.
Hello, blog.
~ o ~
ICH BIN KEIN KIND MEHR
My parents have been making things hard for me every time I ask if I can go somewhere because it has come to their attention that most of my friends are now
involved, with each other, specifically. Apparently that's a cause for alarm because "I'm getting too exposed to things I shouldn't be exposed to," which pretty much translates to "OH NO MY PRECIOUS CHILD IS SURROUNDED BY COUPLES OH NO SHE'S GONNA WANT A BOYFRIEND AND THEN GET MARRIED AND SHE'S NOT GONNA FINISH COLLEGE AND SHE'S GONNA GET PREGNANT AND SHE'S NEVER GONNA GET A JOB AND SHE'S GONNA BE POOR OH NO WHAT ARE WE GOING TO DO???!!!!"
It's ridiculous.
I assured them that I don't intend to be in a relationship until after I get a job and finish college, but apparently that's not enough. I ask them to trust me, and they say they do but then they still insist their point. I totally understand what they're saying, but I need them to give me credit. I need them to say they trust me and show me that they actually do. Not just say it and impose stupid crap like "oh next time you can't watch your best friend's orchestra concert anymore because there's too many couples blahblahblah" like GOSH do you think I go because I want to be the fifth wheel? (Not to mention that I'm not actually the fifth wheel because I know someone who has more experience with that and I'm sorry but your parents don't really give you crap about this.) I went because I wanted to support my best friend and because I wanted to listen to classical music, plus I wanted to breathe some fresh air from MoCo (HAHA just kidding...or am I?)
It's like they're expecting me to want to make out with someone just because I see my friends holding hands or something.
Okay, to be fair, I do crave companionship. I am pretty lonely. I feel it in my bones sometimes. By sometimes, I mean all the time. Not to mention the whole hopeless romantic thing. It has the ability to amplify loneliness somehow. It's like a really crappy Yugioh card: LONELINESS, HOPELESS ROMANTIC 5000x MULTIPLIER
But that doesn't mean I'll just date any random guy. First of all, I'm too spiritually immature to actually be in a relationship. I want to work on that first and then date when I'm ready. Second, I don't want to be half of a couple just because I'm lonely and I feel like I'm going to die alone. I don't want to be involved out of desperation. I want to be satisfied and content in God and in my singleness. Third, I have goals and I intend to reach them with as little distractions as possible. And it's not like me being single until I get there will be a problem. I can't get a boyfriend even if I wanted to, okay.
I'm not girlfriend material, to put it bluntly. I just don't have the face or the personality. I'm a girl friend. I'm the friend you talk to when you want to talk about your significant other, and I would be happy to listen. I thrive on romantic stories and stuff. It's a thing.
Somehow I actually find it hard to imagine myself being with someone. I'm too...homely. Heh. It's good I like cats; it completes the whole image HAHAHA
Anyway since this post is pretty much me just complaining about things, I'll wrap it up. See ya.
