Let's take a break from my emo-ness and celebrate love blog post 2012!
Tuesday, February 14, 2012 @ 5:41 PM
| 0 notesI want to fall in love.
I mean, like LOVE love.
Romantic love. Eros love.
There are times when I begin to really like a person and I would think that I love them, but that's a lie.
I just care deeply for them.
Like, super deep caring.
But I don't think I've ever fallen in love before.
If you follow me on Tumblr, you would see that I've been posting a lot of Spuffy lately.
What the heck is Spuffy, you might ask.
Spuffy is basically the ship name of Spike and Buffy, from Buffy the Vampire Slayer, which I have never seen in my life.
But I am really, really, really obsessed with this ship.
Why?
BECAUSE SPIKE.
Spike is a soulless vampire who fell in love with a slayer that he's supposed to kill and who's supposed to kill him.
There is a point to my fangirlish ravings, just wait.
Now I hate paranormal romance.
But THIS SHIP.
Spike fell in love with Buffy even though she never loved him. She called him a disgusting monster; she told him he is beneath her; she repeatedly said that she would never love him.
They did have a relationship, but it was
really physical and abusive. I think that's Buffy's thing though. Eh.
Anyway, she basically used him, and he knew it.
But he never said anything, never demanded anything.
The best night of his life is when he watched Buffy sleep in his arms.
This is a soulless vampire we're talking about, okay.
Sure, he did some bad things, but soulless vampire, remember?
When she died, he took care of her sister.
When she came back, he was her best friend.
When the Scoobies kicked her out of the team, he was the one who stuck with her.
When she needed a champion, he died for her.
All because he loved her.
"Now, you listen to me. I’ve been alive a bit longer than you. And dead a lot longer than that. I’ve seen things you couldn’t imagine - done things I’d prefer you didn’t. I don’t exactly have a reputation for being a thinker. I follow my blood. Which doesn’t exactly rush in the direction of my brain. I've made a lot of mistakes. A lot of wrong bloody calls. A hundred plus years and there’s only one thing I’ve ever been sure of. You." - Spike (Touched)
UGH, THIS IS THE MOST ANGSTY OTP EVER.
Anyway, the point is that I want to love like Spike.
Or like Nakatsu in Hana Kimi. Or Rui in Hana Yori Dango. Or Hikaru in Ouran. Or basically every other third wheel in every show ever made.
I want to experience that heart-breaking, gut-wrenching feeling that is love.
I want to be able to say that I loved someone so much that even if he loved someone else I could say that I still loved him.
I'm not a masochist, though, if you're thinking that.
I was just...thinking.
Or maybe all this is just a result of the countless dramas that I have watched throughout my life.
Nevermind me then.
These are merely musings of my bored, bored mind.
However, I know that God will provide the perfect man for me.
I'm still waiting, and I can only hope that it's going to be an interesting love story~
Let's take a break from my emo-ness and celebrate love blog post 2012!
Tuesday, February 14, 2012 @ 5:41 PM
| 0 notesI want to fall in love.
I mean, like LOVE love.
Romantic love. Eros love.
There are times when I begin to really like a person and I would think that I love them, but that's a lie.
I just care deeply for them.
Like, super deep caring.
But I don't think I've ever fallen in love before.
If you follow me on Tumblr, you would see that I've been posting a lot of Spuffy lately.
What the heck is Spuffy, you might ask.
Spuffy is basically the ship name of Spike and Buffy, from Buffy the Vampire Slayer, which I have never seen in my life.
But I am really, really, really obsessed with this ship.
Why?
BECAUSE SPIKE.
Spike is a soulless vampire who fell in love with a slayer that he's supposed to kill and who's supposed to kill him.
There is a point to my fangirlish ravings, just wait.
Now I hate paranormal romance.
But THIS SHIP.
Spike fell in love with Buffy even though she never loved him. She called him a disgusting monster; she told him he is beneath her; she repeatedly said that she would never love him.
They did have a relationship, but it was
really physical and abusive. I think that's Buffy's thing though. Eh.
Anyway, she basically used him, and he knew it.
But he never said anything, never demanded anything.
The best night of his life is when he watched Buffy sleep in his arms.
This is a soulless vampire we're talking about, okay.
Sure, he did some bad things, but soulless vampire, remember?
When she died, he took care of her sister.
When she came back, he was her best friend.
When the Scoobies kicked her out of the team, he was the one who stuck with her.
When she needed a champion, he died for her.
All because he loved her.
"Now, you listen to me. I’ve been alive a bit longer than you. And dead a lot longer than that. I’ve seen things you couldn’t imagine - done things I’d prefer you didn’t. I don’t exactly have a reputation for being a thinker. I follow my blood. Which doesn’t exactly rush in the direction of my brain. I've made a lot of mistakes. A lot of wrong bloody calls. A hundred plus years and there’s only one thing I’ve ever been sure of. You." - Spike (Touched)
UGH, THIS IS THE MOST ANGSTY OTP EVER.
Anyway, the point is that I want to love like Spike.
Or like Nakatsu in Hana Kimi. Or Rui in Hana Yori Dango. Or Hikaru in Ouran. Or basically every other third wheel in every show ever made.
I want to experience that heart-breaking, gut-wrenching feeling that is love.
I want to be able to say that I loved someone so much that even if he loved someone else I could say that I still loved him.
I'm not a masochist, though, if you're thinking that.
I was just...thinking.
Or maybe all this is just a result of the countless dramas that I have watched throughout my life.
Nevermind me then.
These are merely musings of my bored, bored mind.
However, I know that God will provide the perfect man for me.
I'm still waiting, and I can only hope that it's going to be an interesting love story~
