things that i am thankful for
Thursday, November 22, 2012 @ 8:40 PM
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ok so the obvious ones first:
- God, of course
- my family
- my friends
- being able to fulfill Maslow's hierarchy of needs
then the not so obvious:
- having clothes that don't fit me anymore
- it means i have more than enough food to eat
- also it means i'm growing and that i'm pretty healthy
but i still want to lose weight oops
- having this gum ache
- i mean it's pretty bad but like
- it makes relief so much better
- and i don't mean it like 'oh yeah without pain there is no joy' kinda thing
- one can still exist without the other but
- pain helps define joy
- in john green's words
- "an awareness of broccoli might make someone grateful for the existence of chocolate, but it doesn't create the taste of chocolate"
- so in my own situation
- this pain makes the effect of tylenol so much sweeter
- but yeah planning a visit to the dentist soon
- being in a community college
- it means i'm in school
- it might not be where i want to be
- but it's where God put me and i am grateful that i'm still studying
- all these struggles that my family is going through
- for proving how faithful God is
- like seriously
- if i could just tell you how much we've been blessed
- i couldn't even imagine all these favors that we've been given
- also it showed us who really cared about our family
- having sore muscles
- it means i am able-bodied
- also it means i am capable of working
- being at the mercy of other people
- because it's teaching me and my family how to be humble and appreciative of what we have
- not having a job
- one less thing to be stressed out about
- not having a license/car
- i don't need to pay for gas and insurance
- not having a boyfriend
- it means i could "concentrate" on studying
- also it means i could look at cute guys and no one would be mad at me
- always being third wheel
- it means my friends are happy in their relationships
- not looking like a supermodel
- it means nobody's just using me for my looks
- it means people are friends with me because they actually like my personality
- liking someone who doesn't like me back
- i'm learning how to be patient
- reinforces my parents' teachings that i can't always get what i want
- it makes me rethink what i really want
- and how i perceive other people
- the struggle also helps me learn how to be a better communicator
- and i know that even though we won't end up together
- it's a good experience that i can look back to
1 thessalonians 5:18 says "in everything give thanks, for this is God's will in you in Christ Jesus"
yeah, it's hard to deal with struggles in life and yes, i'm praying that we may overcome these difficulties
but there's nothing wrong in looking for that silver lining
so i'm thankful for the good things and the bad things, because as the wise kelly clarkson said,
what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
CHAROT
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
painkillers
Tuesday, November 20, 2012 @ 7:03 PM
| 0 notesmy tooth hurts so much
and we don't have insurance
hope i don't OD
new system
Today I decided to state all my complaints using haikus. This way, I'll have enough time to think if my complaint is important enough or if it actually makes sense. If I can't make a haiku about a complaint, it means that I'm just wasting my time complaining about it.
please don't read thanks
Saturday, November 17, 2012 @ 5:34 PM
| 0 notesI know my blog has been more of a fangirling ground as of lately but seriously
BEN WHISHAW OKAY
BEN
FREAKING
WHISHAW
I mean I haven't seen Skyfall yet but based on that one
clip about his introduction as the new quartermaster that I've seen, I can say that he reminds me a lot of Auggie (Covert Affairs), who I also love to bits
AH I CAN'T Q IS SO CUTE
I CAN'T
SORRY
I HAVE LOST ALL THE ABILITY TO CAN
AAAAAAH ASDFGHJKLKJHGFSDFGHJKL;HGFDFGHJ
ASKJDGAHSJKJDHSGADSJDFGASHKFJSAJDFSAKLAGDBGFFHUHUHUHUHUHU
also i reblogged this photoset of Q on tumblr and i got a message saying:
"when my boyfriend and i watched skyfall, and we saw Q, we were like yup jireh's type"
UGHASJDSAGHDHSAGDAHSDGASJKDASKL
YUP DEFINITELY MY TYPE
KASJLJGHDASHLSKDHASDSKLDHSAJKDASLKDJJHADJKSDGHSAKGDK
I'M CRY
THIS MANGA IS GOING TO BE THE DEATH OF ME
Friday, November 9, 2012 @ 3:45 PM
| 0 notes"I will love you forever, until you become annoyed with me. So stay by my side."
kuragehime
Friday, November 2, 2012 @ 5:54 PM
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I mean, I love shu but but but he fell in love with tsukimi because she was pretty and for a while didn't even recognize her when she's not dolled up so clearly that's not fair to kuranosuke who has always been there for tsukimi even when she was just basic and it just hurts because of his soliloquy when he was talking about how he doesn't want to be the sorcerer that gave cinderella magic even though he technically is because there has never been a fairytale where the princess ends up with the sorcerer which means that he can stay by tsukimi's side but only as a "girl friend" because there is no way that a princess like her would choose him over shu who was the prince that she's been waiting for aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh i love shu and his innocence and his cute let me propose by stationery idea but dang i hate guys who fall for looks i mean seriously when they had their first date like 49 chapters in he still has no idea what she's really like meanwhile when kura's thinking of how the date is going he was able to accurately predict how tsukimi is going to react to the whole thing because he knows her like no one else does not even the other amars like tsukimi even told him that he's the only one she could trust fully and she says it's a hunch but i know she trusts him because he was always there and believed in her and the other amars and like wow he doesn't even need to help save amamizukan but he's helping like crazy and i mean shu's trying to help in his own way but it's kura who's running around and stuff and like kura actually encourages her to just focus on doing things she love because that's also his philosophy and i just i can't too much feelings for this non-canon ship (for now hopefully) because i will legit send angry letters to akiko-sensei because CLEARLY THIS SHIP MUST SAIL
so lonely
Thursday, November 1, 2012 @ 7:50 PM
| 0 notesI'm always lonely.
It happens so often, I'm used to it.
This loneliness, though, is quite different somehow.
There's something different with this particular silence, with the desire to speak without having anyone to listen, with the emptiness in my chest.
It's not that I don't have anyone; there's plenty of people who are willing to listen, and I'm forever grateful to them,
but no matter how much I say, or how deep I go, or how loud I say words
it feels like no one will ever be able to understand
It scares me.
My head is so......quiet.
so, so quiet
ssshhhhhhhhhhh
i can't even hear my own heartbeat
so cold
there's a chill in my bones
and the silence
is deafening
and i'm all alone
things that i am thankful for
Thursday, November 22, 2012 @ 8:40 PM
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ok so the obvious ones first:
- God, of course
- my family
- my friends
- being able to fulfill Maslow's hierarchy of needs
then the not so obvious:
- having clothes that don't fit me anymore
- it means i have more than enough food to eat
- also it means i'm growing and that i'm pretty healthy
but i still want to lose weight oops
- having this gum ache
- i mean it's pretty bad but like
- it makes relief so much better
- and i don't mean it like 'oh yeah without pain there is no joy' kinda thing
- one can still exist without the other but
- pain helps define joy
- in john green's words
- "an awareness of broccoli might make someone grateful for the existence of chocolate, but it doesn't create the taste of chocolate"
- so in my own situation
- this pain makes the effect of tylenol so much sweeter
- but yeah planning a visit to the dentist soon
- being in a community college
- it means i'm in school
- it might not be where i want to be
- but it's where God put me and i am grateful that i'm still studying
- all these struggles that my family is going through
- for proving how faithful God is
- like seriously
- if i could just tell you how much we've been blessed
- i couldn't even imagine all these favors that we've been given
- also it showed us who really cared about our family
- having sore muscles
- it means i am able-bodied
- also it means i am capable of working
- being at the mercy of other people
- because it's teaching me and my family how to be humble and appreciative of what we have
- not having a job
- one less thing to be stressed out about
- not having a license/car
- i don't need to pay for gas and insurance
- not having a boyfriend
- it means i could "concentrate" on studying
- also it means i could look at cute guys and no one would be mad at me
- always being third wheel
- it means my friends are happy in their relationships
- not looking like a supermodel
- it means nobody's just using me for my looks
- it means people are friends with me because they actually like my personality
- liking someone who doesn't like me back
- i'm learning how to be patient
- reinforces my parents' teachings that i can't always get what i want
- it makes me rethink what i really want
- and how i perceive other people
- the struggle also helps me learn how to be a better communicator
- and i know that even though we won't end up together
- it's a good experience that i can look back to
1 thessalonians 5:18 says "in everything give thanks, for this is God's will in you in Christ Jesus"
yeah, it's hard to deal with struggles in life and yes, i'm praying that we may overcome these difficulties
but there's nothing wrong in looking for that silver lining
so i'm thankful for the good things and the bad things, because as the wise kelly clarkson said,
what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
CHAROT
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
painkillers
Tuesday, November 20, 2012 @ 7:03 PM
| 0 notesmy tooth hurts so much
and we don't have insurance
hope i don't OD
new system
Today I decided to state all my complaints using haikus. This way, I'll have enough time to think if my complaint is important enough or if it actually makes sense. If I can't make a haiku about a complaint, it means that I'm just wasting my time complaining about it.
please don't read thanks
Saturday, November 17, 2012 @ 5:34 PM
| 0 notesI know my blog has been more of a fangirling ground as of lately but seriously
BEN WHISHAW OKAY
BEN
FREAKING
WHISHAW
I mean I haven't seen Skyfall yet but based on that one
clip about his introduction as the new quartermaster that I've seen, I can say that he reminds me a lot of Auggie (Covert Affairs), who I also love to bits
AH I CAN'T Q IS SO CUTE
I CAN'T
SORRY
I HAVE LOST ALL THE ABILITY TO CAN
AAAAAAH ASDFGHJKLKJHGFSDFGHJKL;HGFDFGHJ
ASKJDGAHSJKJDHSGADSJDFGASHKFJSAJDFSAKLAGDBGFFHUHUHUHUHUHU
also i reblogged this photoset of Q on tumblr and i got a message saying:
"when my boyfriend and i watched skyfall, and we saw Q, we were like yup jireh's type"
UGHASJDSAGHDHSAGDAHSDGASJKDASKL
YUP DEFINITELY MY TYPE
KASJLJGHDASHLSKDHASDSKLDHSAJKDASLKDJJHADJKSDGHSAKGDK
I'M CRY
THIS MANGA IS GOING TO BE THE DEATH OF ME
Friday, November 9, 2012 @ 3:45 PM
| 0 notes"I will love you forever, until you become annoyed with me. So stay by my side."
kuragehime
Friday, November 2, 2012 @ 5:54 PM
| 0 notes
I mean, I love shu but but but he fell in love with tsukimi because she was pretty and for a while didn't even recognize her when she's not dolled up so clearly that's not fair to kuranosuke who has always been there for tsukimi even when she was just basic and it just hurts because of his soliloquy when he was talking about how he doesn't want to be the sorcerer that gave cinderella magic even though he technically is because there has never been a fairytale where the princess ends up with the sorcerer which means that he can stay by tsukimi's side but only as a "girl friend" because there is no way that a princess like her would choose him over shu who was the prince that she's been waiting for aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh i love shu and his innocence and his cute let me propose by stationery idea but dang i hate guys who fall for looks i mean seriously when they had their first date like 49 chapters in he still has no idea what she's really like meanwhile when kura's thinking of how the date is going he was able to accurately predict how tsukimi is going to react to the whole thing because he knows her like no one else does not even the other amars like tsukimi even told him that he's the only one she could trust fully and she says it's a hunch but i know she trusts him because he was always there and believed in her and the other amars and like wow he doesn't even need to help save amamizukan but he's helping like crazy and i mean shu's trying to help in his own way but it's kura who's running around and stuff and like kura actually encourages her to just focus on doing things she love because that's also his philosophy and i just i can't too much feelings for this non-canon ship (for now hopefully) because i will legit send angry letters to akiko-sensei because CLEARLY THIS SHIP MUST SAIL
so lonely
Thursday, November 1, 2012 @ 7:50 PM
| 0 notesI'm always lonely.
It happens so often, I'm used to it.
This loneliness, though, is quite different somehow.
There's something different with this particular silence, with the desire to speak without having anyone to listen, with the emptiness in my chest.
It's not that I don't have anyone; there's plenty of people who are willing to listen, and I'm forever grateful to them,
but no matter how much I say, or how deep I go, or how loud I say words
it feels like no one will ever be able to understand
It scares me.
My head is so......quiet.
so, so quiet
ssshhhhhhhhhhh
i can't even hear my own heartbeat
so cold
there's a chill in my bones
and the silence
is deafening
and i'm all alone
