rage
Sunday, February 19, 2012 @ 9:04 PM
| 0 notesI have never been so angry at anyone in my life before.
It would sound stupid and childish, but I am genuinely upset right now. The editor of Manila Mail corresponded with me about the spelling bee I won recently, and asked several questions which I happily answered. I knew it was going to be published on the paper and online, so I answered the questions to the best of my ability and blahblahblah. Apparently, the article came out a few days ago, and the first person to inform me was Pastor Ro. He also kept on mentioning that in my photo I was doing the Asian pose, you know, with peace sign and stuff. I don't remember ever taking a photo like that, certainly not during the bee. And then one of my teachers linked me the online article.
They used a photo of me that I took almost 4 years ago, one that I used as a profile picture in a website that is not even a social networking site and a website that I haven't visited in
years. Oh, they also got my age wrong, because they took the information from the freaking site.
THEY JUST DECIDED TO GOOGLE MY NAME AND USE THE FIRST PICTURE THEY GOT.
WITHOUT MY PERMISSION.
I know some people will say,
Oh, you put it in the Internet, so it's public. Or,
If you put it as a profile picture, then it's okay because everyone will see it anyway.
Don't make me laugh.
Never mind that that photo is absolutely hideous, but I think I have the right to know where
MY face will be posted, especially if it's going to be on print. They asked me for an interview; they could've asked me for a photo. The teacher that referred me to the editor said that he submitted a picture of me that he submitted before for another program, a picture that
I gave him voluntarily.
Okay, so say that they still decided to use that photo of me. Uhm, hello? Can't they have at least notified me that,
Hey, we're gonna use this photo of you. We found it on the Internet, and you can't really do anything about it because it's public. We just want you to know that we're going to go ahead and use it anyway.
Seriously, I am livid right now. I can't even cry, and I usually cry when I'm mad. I'm torn between crying and punching something.
I just feel really violated.
I mean, they made a profit out of this. Can't they be a bit more considerate? Because it really hurts, you know. I just feel really bad about myself now. It's like, I can't even be proud of this article because I felt like I was violated. I don't want anyone to see this article because I'm ashamed of myself and I look hideous and I didn't give authorization for this crap to be released and I'm so ugly and God I wish the ground would just open up and swallow me and maybe i should just disappear from the Internet because I'm scared of this happening again and i really don't want anyone reading this stupid article and maybe i should just stop doing things that would draw attention to myself see this is why i don't want to be involved in school because there is always a risk that i would be conspicuous and when one is conspicuous crap like this happen and oh my god i want to die
rage
Sunday, February 19, 2012 @ 9:04 PM
| 0 notesI have never been so angry at anyone in my life before.
It would sound stupid and childish, but I am genuinely upset right now. The editor of Manila Mail corresponded with me about the spelling bee I won recently, and asked several questions which I happily answered. I knew it was going to be published on the paper and online, so I answered the questions to the best of my ability and blahblahblah. Apparently, the article came out a few days ago, and the first person to inform me was Pastor Ro. He also kept on mentioning that in my photo I was doing the Asian pose, you know, with peace sign and stuff. I don't remember ever taking a photo like that, certainly not during the bee. And then one of my teachers linked me the online article.
They used a photo of me that I took almost 4 years ago, one that I used as a profile picture in a website that is not even a social networking site and a website that I haven't visited in
years. Oh, they also got my age wrong, because they took the information from the freaking site.
THEY JUST DECIDED TO GOOGLE MY NAME AND USE THE FIRST PICTURE THEY GOT.
WITHOUT MY PERMISSION.
I know some people will say,
Oh, you put it in the Internet, so it's public. Or,
If you put it as a profile picture, then it's okay because everyone will see it anyway.
Don't make me laugh.
Never mind that that photo is absolutely hideous, but I think I have the right to know where
MY face will be posted, especially if it's going to be on print. They asked me for an interview; they could've asked me for a photo. The teacher that referred me to the editor said that he submitted a picture of me that he submitted before for another program, a picture that
I gave him voluntarily.
Okay, so say that they still decided to use that photo of me. Uhm, hello? Can't they have at least notified me that,
Hey, we're gonna use this photo of you. We found it on the Internet, and you can't really do anything about it because it's public. We just want you to know that we're going to go ahead and use it anyway.
Seriously, I am livid right now. I can't even cry, and I usually cry when I'm mad. I'm torn between crying and punching something.
I just feel really violated.
I mean, they made a profit out of this. Can't they be a bit more considerate? Because it really hurts, you know. I just feel really bad about myself now. It's like, I can't even be proud of this article because I felt like I was violated. I don't want anyone to see this article because I'm ashamed of myself and I look hideous and I didn't give authorization for this crap to be released and I'm so ugly and God I wish the ground would just open up and swallow me and maybe i should just disappear from the Internet because I'm scared of this happening again and i really don't want anyone reading this stupid article and maybe i should just stop doing things that would draw attention to myself see this is why i don't want to be involved in school because there is always a risk that i would be conspicuous and when one is conspicuous crap like this happen and oh my god i want to die
